Rain rain go away

The rain came as light showers that adorned the sky. It was like Christmas lights at the start of September. And just like how we see the start of a spectacular light show leading to the main event, the light showers turn into a full blown storm like the star of the show that it is. Amazing as nature may be, for me it just brings devastation. I have seen it coming, and as expected the devastation started inside me.

The constant rain will not go away easily. It will enjoy the season because it’s his. It will embrace the heat when the morning comes. It will receive well the droplets of water that it brings. So that when it is full to the brim, it will release everything like a child high on sugar leaving everyone drenched. And…the rain does not play alone, it’s accompanied by the cold wind slowly travelling from the north pole. It signals the change in atmosphere and along with it, a change in me. From the light sniffles I get from the cold wind, to the dry air that tickles my throat…the sudden unfamiliarity chokes me. I can’t breathe and next thing I know I am fighting to survive this.

Breathing in, I inhale all the things I want to forget. Breathing out, I exhale all those things out in to the world wanting catharsis. But it’s not easy because I need to keep breathing and every time I do, everything comes back like the pain from that last heartbreak you can’t move on from.

But like all things, the rainy season will end too. As it ends, I hope that it takes all the bad things too. As for now, I wait for the rain to go away just to come back another day.

One day

One day I will find love
And not the kind who will love me despite my shortcomings
Not even the kind who will love me and accept all my flaws.
I want the kind of love who will look at me
And list all the great things that he can see…

Like how I am great at laughing, even at lame jokes…
Like how my skin looks radiant without make up on…
Like how unique my mind works even when I am like a dork
Like how I can’t ride bikes, but never backs down on long walks
Like how I can’t drive but is the best passenger
Like how I fangirl over BTS … Period (.)

The list will go on, so I hope to find love…a love who will find me beautiful and amazing.